Behind again... always....

ok, so I am behind on laundry again, not too bad this time, but still not as organized as I want to be. I am also behind on Bible reading. I was doing so well in January but February just got away from me. I can still catch up if I double up for the next few weeks. I am trying hard not to just give up because I am behind.

I am finally de cluttering my bedroom! I have kids clothes laying on my ottoman that need to go in storage or taken to the consignment store. I never know what to keep for then next child. My older son is 7 years older then the youngest son. Do I save things he has grown out of for the next 7 years until the baby fits into it? Or do I say, let's move it out and I can repurchase up to date clothing when the time comes? I have my middle child, the girl, with no one to pass down clothes to. I hope to have another baby, and hopefully another girl, but since I am not preggo yet, there would be at least 7 years difference there too. So, should I give away the clothes, or keep them in hopes of using them some day?

I think it is harder for me to get rid of the girl clothes. First of all, they are all so cute! I can't bare to part with them! And I of course love to shop, so you would think I would just toss everything and start over, but I guess I am feeling a bit meloncholy over the possibility I WON'T have another. I hope to, and we are "trying", but nothing yet, and I do feel my childbearing years slipping away.

I know some people have kids after 35 and even well into their fourties, but I never saw myself doing that. I don't know how to describe my feelings on it exactly, but my husband and I always thought, we will have kids while we are young and struggling, then when we are older and more settled, and they are grown, we will still be young enough to travel and enjoy each other. I already have a 7 year difference between oldest and youngest. If I had another even now, the difference would be 10 years. That is a big deal to me.

And there is also the issue of my not wanting medical intervention in my pregnancy. I had my last child at home in a beautiful water birth that I will cherish all of my life! I would expect the same thing, though the older I get the less likely I will get by with no complications.

And so, I am not sure what to do now. I think about it all the time, what to do, do we perminently seal the deal and move on with three beautiful healthy children, do we adopt which would guarantee me a girl if I choose, or do we keep praying and waiting for more babies in God's time. The waiting and not knowing is hardest for me. If I knew that I would have a beautiful baby in two years, then I could be hapy and enjoy the time with only 3. But if we keep trying for the next 5 years and nothing, then decide to stop, I feel like I will worry and wonder the whole time and...oh this all seems so silly, of course I know I should be content and not worry and that is how a good Christian woman behaves, but I can't help it. I pray and wonder what to think or feel or do next and I don't feel like I have any answers...

and so I am waiting....

The House Fairy

I have subscribed to a great site called FlyLady for a couple of years now. They help you clean and organize your house. There are tips for decluttering and creating habits. I have really enjoyed the ideas and encouragement I get there. I can't say I follow the program perfectly, but I am slowly trying to develop good habits. Well, I came across another site through FlyLady that helps kids clean up and help around the house. It is called The House Fairy .

I think it looks like a great idea. I could probably create the whole thing myself, but for 2 years of notes and new ideas, I figured why not give it a go. And it is only $10. I love the idea of rewarding instead of nagging. It's just positive reinforcement. I am not very good at that. I can nag and pick at all the wrong doings, but it is harder for me to point out the good things without being prompted. I guess it's a classic case of "the squeaky wheel gets the oil".

My only concern is that my 9 year old will think it is lame. Several of the testimonies said they had some pre teens on board, just to get prizes, but they knew mom was really the fairy. All well and good, but how do you keep them from spoiling it for the youngsters? And as of yet he hasn't questioned Santa, at least to us, but I am wondering if this cheesy video work will make him see the light? I may try to do the notes and prizes, but not do the videos, that way they can use their imaginations...We shall see.

I hope to start a little later this week, after Valentine's Day. I already have some gifts for the kids for that.

And speaking of V-day, I don't get a date with hubby:(

I am helping with a youth fundraiser at our church. I am fixing the spaghetti dinner (hopefully with help) and the kids will serve about 15 couples. My hubby has very surprisingly offered to help in the nursery that night...I guess since I am not available, he figured on letting all the other couples stay together. What a sweetie!

(shhhhh....I do have a little late night surprise when we get home though) hehe

Boring daily musings

I guess, if anyone even pays attention, you may notice that I don't post often. It is not from lack of computer time. I guess mostly it is because I read some pretty great blogs, and they say all the things I want to say. And they say it better then I ever could. And so I find myself feeling a little inadequate to post about the same topics. I should still, journal my life, for my own sake. But I so enjoy reading about everyone else's goings on, that I end up short on time and energy for writing my own.

Oh and did I mention we are boring! LOL

I mean we have nothing going on right now. Well, that's not entirely true. We go to dance class, basketball practices and games, have piano lessons, grocery shop, read, play games... but that is everyday stuff and rarely seems to merit an entry.

Today I have decided I have put off the laundry long enough, and since I have no clean undies, I am sitting here in my robe washing load after load. It's funny how all the kids clothes get washed, and hubby has enough clothes to last a lifetime, so I don't have to wash his as often, but mine never get in the mix. I get down to wearing my pregnant underwear before I get around to washing mine. I mean, we also have towels, rags, diapers, sheets, blankets etc to wash, I know how mine gets put off. But really I should be on top of it.

I had a system for a while, each day of the week had a category. Like Monday-sheets, Tues- kids clothes, Wed- towels, Thurs-parents, Friday-extra stuff that was forgotten. That way I wouldn't have to do any on the weekends. And I work in the diapers when needed. I don't follow the system any more. I don't know why. It worked. But we are all getting lazy around here.

So starting today I am jumping back into the laundry system! I have my clothes in and will do hubby's today too. And I came to realize, that though I would like fresh clean sheets every week, washing 5 sets of bedding in one day doesn't happen. And so we will start to rotate Monday's. And then only wash each set every 3 weeks (boys bunk together the first Monday, Megan the second Monday, and ours the third. ) And maybe leave the fourth Monday for the guest bedding, though it rarely gets used unless the kids are playing in it, and I feel like I should re-wash it even if they have just been building forts with it.

Anyway, I am going to tackle the laundry yet!

And like I said, too boring to write about! hehe