I love being a mom. I am trying very hard to learn to be a better mom as well as a better wife and homekeeper. I desperately want to take care of my home and my family. I want to cook and clean and sew (still haven't learned) and bake homemade bread (something is wrong with my yeast, or me) and grow a garden and can the produce for winter (I haven't even gotten books on this subject yet and its almost planting time). A lot of lofty goals and I am not managing them well.
Right now I am feeling overwhelmed. I am tired of doing the same things over and over. I did dishes twice today and as I am getting ready for bed, there stands a sink full of dishes! I gave the kids clothes to put away today and Jordan brings me a basket and says "look mom its full again." It never ends. I will never be able to sit down and look around and say "ahhh there we are, all done."
And I know this. It is not new information. But right now I am in a slump. I am tired of feeling like nothing I do is making progress. We do the same things day after day, and still, nothing changes. I don't have time to scrapbook, or read, or decorate my home because I feel like the mundane tasks of daily life are dragging me down.
And here I am getting ready for bed and kind of dreading the morning, where I know I will have to start over- messy dishes, floors, clothes- and feel once again like I am not measuring up to all I could be, should be, as a homekeeper.
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Thanks for stopping by my blog - and I hope you are feeling better today. We all have those down days, and they really stink.
ReplyDeleteAs for the gardening - my toddler, suprisingly, has completely left my seedlings alone, even though they are well within his reach. I say go for it!
(Oh, and I have great luck using Fleishman's bread machine yeast to make bread. I don't have a bread machine, but the yeast can be added to the dry ingredients and always rises nicely. No "proofing" required.)
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