I am standing on the edge of a cliff, looking down into darkness...the unknown. God is asking me to step out! I am so afraid! I know He will be there, He is there now...guiding and directing my steps. But I am afraid none the less. Life changing things are coming and I know they are right and good...but "what ifs" and unknowns still haunt me...
what if we make the wrong decisions, what if we can't handle all this...I am already weary. I love my life and my kids and all the things I believe are God's calling and direction on my life, but I am tired. I need rest...rest in Him...deep breaths...
so here I stand on the cliff, and God says jump...am I ready? can I handle it? is it too much, too hard, too...crazy?
I am praying...crying out for clear answers...they are coming... but I still feel afraid...
maybe that's ok. if I could do this on my own, with my own strength and understanding...well, it wouldn't be trust and love and sacrifice worthy of our Lord. if I could do it on my own, I wouldn't need Him...and He wants me to need Him...
so I trust and pray and love.....
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